I´m a single parent. What is your super power?

Five weeks.

Five weeks I have been a single parent now and let me tell you there are challenges in being a single parent I never ever thought of before. Then again, I never thought I´d ever become a single parent, but that is a whole different story.

Five weeks of me being there for Mik, making decisions, taking care of the regular, establishing the new normal and planning for the future. Be it the near or the little more future future. And I can do all that. Heck, I have been doing it these five weeks and I can and so will continue doing that.

But there are times where I really feel that huge hole in my heart. Where I rush home to ask Marco only to find that the house is empty. When I can´t just ask Marco how we should tackle this, or what he thinks of the situation. Where I so miss my one and only soulmate, the one person that knew me the very best and could just make me take it easy with giving me that crooked smile and that loving look, or slightly irritated, depending on how much I had been doing up until that point.

And then the performances at school. Or at the sports club. Where we would just look at each other, being so proud of Mik. I miss being able to exchange those looks. I miss being able to share those feelings. I find it tough being just me.

It really dawned on me this week that it is just me in charge now. Only me. Of course, Mik does have a say in things, but it is me that is the parent. I am making the decisions. I´m the responsible adult in this household making sure that all goes well. Or rather even better than just well.

I can compare how it was before 18 January and how it is now. It was the best when we were a team of 3 and where it was the 3 of us conquering the world. But it is also going well now. Sure, it is different, but it is going well. We are a team of 2 and we are still conquering the world.

I have promised myself to hone my super power over the coming weeks, months, years and to continue living the life and loving it!

New super power moving in this coming week by the way: Ylva will make her entrance in the Hamperium residence on Wednesday!