zondag 16 februari 2020

About a but

It has been 4 weeks. And a day. Yep, still counting. And even more yep, it still feels very surreal that we are no longer a team of 3. But!

Yes, of course there is a but. But no worries because it is a good but. A but that says we´re very much alive and kicking and a but that includes having not enough hours in a day to get all our future plans planned. A but that gives me, no us, a smile on our faces. A but that is very much a New Normal But and I kinda dig this but! It is a but that keeps us going!

During those past 4 weeks, I got quite a lot done. Not on my own. Heck no. I mean I am so incredibly grateful for all those kind souls that have helped me along the way with figuring out all the red tape that needed (and needs) dealing with. From arranging all that needed arranging at the hospital to talking to the funeral person and getting the cremation organized, applying for the official approval to spread Marco´s ashes at the most beautiful place in our back yard and meeting with the kind people at the Norwegian Labour and Welfare Administration (NAV) to get lots more red tape sorted. Plus I had to go to the Courthouse in Lillehammer. Felt kind of intimidating with 30 very stern judges staring at you whilst you go up the stairs to the reception desk. Not that those 30 judges where actually staring at me, but they put all these pictures of all those judges at the top of the stairs on the way up the stairs. I did get what I needed though, despite their stern looks.

At one point I sort of got in this very typical ´we just love forms´ circle. NAV needed one paper from the bank, but the bank couldn´t issue that paper unless the Courthouse would release this other very specific form. And then the Courthouse couldn´t release that form unless NAV would provide them with something like 20 copies of this very specific schedule. Ah well, I guess one could count this as a further Masterclass Integration into Norwegian society with having dealt with all this. And as said, I couldn´t have done all this without the invaluable support of first and foremost Simen and then of course my dear gang at 50 Degrees. And not to mention the fantastic crew at Mik´s school.

A few questions I got quite a lot over the past weeks:

  • Will we move back to Holland now? Heck no! Or rather a capital NO! I do love Holland and I feel very grateful that I got to grow up there, but that is so not where our home (or school or work) is. Our home is here at Ensby, in Øyer, in Norway.
  • Have we gotten into a new rhythm yet?  Well, with both school and work (and the hospital), we have places to be and stuff to do. Which is good. But is it a rhythm? I dunno. We´re doing it, going those places and doing that stuff. And it feels good.
  • How am I doing, health wise? Great! Despite for the lack of hair, which I make up for with some great new hats!, I am feeling great and doing well. Even my doc confirms that with me having a blood pressure of a 25-year old and a pulse of an even younger person.
  • When can I visit you? We love to share our love for our new home with you. But (yes there is a but), right now we have planned in all the visits that both Mik and me want and can handle up to at least the summer holidays.
    As we have had a bit to take in over the past weeks, it feels so good to have time to ourselves also. At first I didn´t really like having time to sit down, because then I would start thinking (I know, as if I´m not thinking otherwise, but you know what I mean.. at least I hope you know what I mean!) and that would only make me sad and take away all my energy.

    I do still get sad at times and yes I cry. We both do. But the best method for me to deal with it is to take one of the huskies out on a long loooooong walk because then I come back with both energy and light in my heart. Back to the visiting bit: as said, yes we do love to share but give us a little time ok? So that we can get even more back on our feet before we welcome you with open arms! 
To conclude with, a but I am sure Marco has been trying to get across to me for the past 5 weeks: but, now it is time to actually sit down and relax.

And that is just what I will do now. Sit down and relax.

Thank you so much you guys, thanks for having my back! I hope all your buts are good ones too! And that at least one but is a relax but!

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